I'm pretty sure some of you guys have heard of this in college - either in some Comm or Psych class. It's something created by a couple of guys in the 50's as "a model for mapping personality awareness."

So my dearest dearest friends, I give you liberty to contribute to my Johari window by simply clicking some boxes in this link:

http://kevan.org/johari?name=dawnsky

And if you find it interesting enough, you might even want to create your own. :)

Check it out in the PHILIPPINE STAR  today!

"Romancing the Stone" styled and written by Bianca Salonga, Allure section, page K-5 (model: Anielle Santos, make-up by Barbi Chan)

just opened a flicker account for my photos. check it out when you have time, k?! :)

Ok, I know it's a bit late for a new year post, so i'm gonna make this about my new year as a 24-year old. :P

So far, i think my high school motto stands true - what didn't kill me only made me stronger. I was going to go for something like "the year that was" for this entry but too many things happened last year and i've got the memory of a goldfish. Para bang last year just went by so fast and everything is just all a blur. Here are the things i distinctly remember, though:

Starting out as a photographer.
Battling my thesis.
Finally graduating.
Getting my first real job.
Filing my first resignation.
Jorem being welcomed into the family (as my *ehem* boyfriend heehee).
Putting up a business.
Meeting famous people.
Joining zone v.
Learning to drive again.
Reuniting with my childhood barkada.

(Hehe. andami rin pala :P)

Anyhoo...So how does it feel to be one year short of being a quarter of a century old?

The same as I did last year. and the year before that. and the year before that.

What's different about it though, is that somehow I feel more secure, more stable. Maybe it's because I finally know what I want and even if my ideas on achieving particular goals are still a bit vague, I feel like i'm on my way there. With everything happening all at the same time, last year was soooo messy - like my room. No matter how hard i try to keep it in order, there are just too many things in there it's hard to keep track of what i'm willing to lose and what i need to keep. Well...at this point, my room's still a mess, but at least i see some sort of direction for myself.

I decided to start this year by unloading insecurities one by one. I figured this was being too much of an unneccessary load and I'm too old to be whining about things i can't even change. With the help of friends, i realized i've got so much more than i thought i should be thankful for, and that i should give myself more credit than picking on the teeniest mistakes. I admit I'm still working on most of them - and it's so darn hard, but at least im trying right? :)

This year, i'm also going back to reading my Bible daily. I was quite delinquent last year, and it was probably one of the reasons it was hard to get through everything. There's also relying on God more - praying more and more. At the rate time flies, i think it's the wisest thing to do. Especially when things start getting out of control - me in a shopping mall for instance.

And since we're already on it, maybe i'll add holding back on expenses to my list. it's hard enough earning enough, saving up for the future becomes impossible if i don't impose this now. snif snif. Gotta start making good investments (and by that i don't mean good jeans or nice shoes).

I'll stop worrying too much about what other people think of me. I should know better that this could so far be the root of fickle-mindedness. sakit na talaga yata ng mga babae ang over-analyzing, especially when it comes to this. it's time to remind myself that life is not a beauty contest - i don't need to have the all the right answers when i'm put on the spot, or to always look pretty for everybody (although it does feel nice to feel pretty for myself). life can be competitive, but we don't ALWAYS have to win, right? right. :)

I'm really excited for this year. and i'm not the only one who's been saying that. a lot of people i've talked to said last year was tough, but these are the same people say that this year looks bright and promising.

Maybe because it really is. :)

Christmas/ birthday wishlist:

1. Sigma 18-200mm lens *siiiigh...*
2. a set of elves to do all the Christmas orders to be done
3. metallic havaianas
4. a spa gift check
5. table lamp
6. a new pair of jeans
7. Nike Air Unify *sigh*
8. a whole Gayuma BTS cake! (shyucks, i miss katipunan)
9. a trip abroad with shopping money hehehehe
10. 2 premiere tickets for Narnia (The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe)

Ok, ok... I haven't really thought it out yet. So gimme a couple more days to refresh my Christmas spirit. I'll get back on this when I'm done, ok? ok. :) hehehe.

oh, and how can i forget:

11. WORLD PEACE

:)

Here's something to check out when you receive your Aguinaldo this year. Pull out the fresh and crisp hundred peso bills from the pile and zoom in to Gloria's signature. To be sure your bills are fresh from the press, her name should read:

GLORIA MACAPAGAL-ARROVO

For the year 2005, it so happens that our peso bills were printed somewhere in Europe pala. So the press who made them could probably care less if there were any typos. hehe.

But wait! There's more! This is the cheese in my spaghetti:

Our European friends from MSF (Medecins Sans Frontieres) say that the word "ARROVO" actually means "thief" in Latin.

Hehehehe. How appropriate. :P

Since, I'm not really in the mood for essay writing, here's a list of nice things that have been happening for the past weeks:

- Got to shoot during the SEA games - opening ceremonies, gymnastics and tennis doubles championship (photos to follow)
- The goldfish website is almost complete!!! (thanks kaaaams!ÜÜÜ)

- Been getting more bracelet orders than ever (see them here) Ü
- Got a call from a friend regarding an inquiry from New Jersey. They wana take goldfish there too!Ü
- my seester, ninna, won a jewelry design competition last week.
- I've been learning to trust God more with my finances.
- mom brought in a new member of the family - emo, the friendly fighting fish Ü
- we moved the goldfish work station to the study. now, we have space in the dining table again! hehehe.
- our christmas tree looks nice :D
- just found a new tambayan in imus. some of our churchmates put up a place called The Life House (yes, we know it sounds like the band). do pray for it, we hear it's been drawing in a bunch of high school and college kids already.Ü
- My first fashion shoot came out some time last month in the Inquirer and Philippine Star fashion spreads.Ü And since it's out, I can now post these:

- Because photography is such an expensive field, i've been praying for new equipment all year - specifically for a flash and a new lens. This morning, my dad just came home from San Francisco and woke me up with a brand new flash for my camera!!!Ü Love you daddy-o!

*sigh*
 It feels so much better to count blessings than whining. :)